More than anything…
Am at friend’s place right now. … the baby in the family is reading up about card tricks on the internet and trying them out on us. After more than adequate loo time, had recovered enough to stuff my face wit Thai food…
More than anything…this time of the year reminds me not of X’mas but another whole year almost gone by.
Would be funny to say that with age…I’ve mellowed. And yet i know that now I know things that I never knew before.
I also touched base with a past aspect of my life, though ive yet to propel forward full steam ahead - I dont want to start a project and find that the things I care about full time, is demanding much more time and energy that i can spare for part time past times. I cant commit…I CANT COMMIT. Not to part time things, no i cant.
There are two websites to look at, one endeavor to look further into… but all at the same time, Im stressing about deadlines cos I think that what Im currently working on deserves so much more thought and attention than usual.
Its that time of the year… a full and detailed round up is so so SO much in order.
And looking at that aspect of my life then and now…i look at the people i used to talk to, and talk to now and i wonder what do they see when they look at me. Can they see how much my life has changed from since then?
My friend the other day was talking about how life had changed for her. How the people who came in and out of her life had made her to be the person she is today.
I’m slowing down. Not that certain pursuits in life are any less important…but theres a whole new approach to things, result of ever growing knowledge of human nature and perception of things and live. How I rebelled and refused to see how things really are.
Friend used to lecture me about certain facts of life… we’ve had different kinds of lives. We see things differently.Different things are important to us…and yet with time and after looking at how life is for my friend I have to say that I might come to yearn for it. Not yet. But maybe in the future for who knows what it holds.
