Temper, temper…
…i think lack of sleep did not help.Had an eventful night…not helped much by redbull, sambucas and tequilas… met an awfully nice bunch of folks who kept cracking me up with their antics… I had no idea Austrians were so funny.
All at same time, friend did it again. Clash of opinions, clash of tempers, clash of different needs and wants.
What she wants for me, ISNT what I want for me. She has absolutely no idea (or maybe she does) how difficult it is for things and people and situations to move and be EXACTLY the way that i want it. Exactly the way that will suit me. Not her. ME. The situation and way people are is so rare and so extremely hard to come by that I nearly doubled over when she took it off of my hands.
As much as I love her, needless to say i was pissed off. I could tear my hair out.
The unexpected situation that arose last night…didnt help as well….I wasnt ready! Shellshocked as well…. As much as I was pleased about it even though not for the reasons that I would like, I wasnt ready!!! In a few months maybe…. but the day after was too much for my system.
It’s all out of my hands, now.
Deadlines coming soon. Hallelujah.
